mish mash

so pretty much since the last post i have not been on the internet at home AT ALL due to my roommates severe lack of responsibility when it comes to bills. we simply just have not paid any electric, cable nor internet since we moved in, which was last may. the cable company, cox, finally shut the cable and internet off about a month ago. luckily i can surf the web and check out mostly what i like to at work, but i always feel weird. anyway. he has the day off today, and he said he was going to "work on the cox" today. i wont believe it till i can come home, flop on the couch and watch the new seasons of flight of the conchords and lost. so exciting! im so bummed im missing it though. also, i need to finish watching the rest of the lost seasons. thank goddess abc has full episodes on their website, and equally thank goddess for hulu!!! :-)


so whats new with me? well, i got this pair of adorable of tan lacey cut-out shoes at target the other day, and i just think they're the greatest. wearing them with dark denim and a yellow and white gingham button up with lime green cardigan and owl belt buckle. i dig it.
also, a friend of myne got me a watch for valentines day....by no means are we dating or even have hung out outside of work, but he said he was gonna get me one cause he "digs my style". i really didnt think he would get me one, but he says he always follows through. i was impressed, surprised, and thought i might cry. hahaha above all, i really vauled that he said stuck to his word. i wish everyone was like that. christ, i wish I was like that. so, im going to make an attempt to try to be true to my word.

also, sara left for boot camp this morning. im always amazed at how fast tyme flies, because i wanted to arrange some sort of going away party/present/somethingoranother and i barely recognized that yesterday was the 18th!! she came by the house and showed me pictures from her trip to brazil-shes going back in september, and i really really really want to go. im gonna try-and gave me this awesome sarong. its red and black print with a huge elephant in the center. so gorgeous. im sad shes leaving; im really sincerely going to miss her. shes one of the coolest, most bad ass chicks ive ever had the pleasure of being friends with. shes definetly one of those people i'll stay in touch with.

joany is getting married september 12. im making a dress for the occassion. i think mike is going to be my date. we'll have a blast.

i sent adam a message saying 'i should not have been gone for so long' from the avett brothers song the ballad of love and hate. unfortunately he didnt understand where i was going with that. so then i blatantly had to say i miss you and it broke my heart to see you when we had lunch the other day. oh, how i miss him. its awful. i shouldnt have had lunch with him; it's just making me miss him more. having uncovered all those feelings was not a well thought out move.

alyshea had the baby last nite around midnite. she named it gavin john. mom said it was a god awful long labour and she finally ended up having a cesarean section due to the heart rate being down a great deal. i still cant comprehend that my kid sister just had a kid. what's more is that her boyfriend is older than me. and most of all though is that i cant keep a consistent relationship for more than a few months at a tyme. what's wrong with this picture?

pam and her man friend, lee, came down last nite and i made a delicious dinner of gemelli pasta with vodka sauce, mushrooms, and sausage. it was amazing...cept it may have been too rich for me because my tummy hurts now :( so dinner was excellent. i want to form an underground dinner club and travel from house to house weekly. i think i like entertaining...maybe i would like it more if i took an ativan before the guests arrive. haha no. really though its the act of cooking and the reaction to my cooking that i like about entertaining.


last nite rachel asked if i decided what to do come may when the lease is up. i told her i was banking on moving to providence cause i cant stay in newport. it still doesnt make any sense to move to providence if i work in newport. its just dumb. but i know i cant live here anymore because i already feel myself being sucked into the vortex that is aquidneck island and i cant get stuck here because then i wont ever leave and ill end up just like everyone else here. im better than that. so anyway, rachel goes on to say that she want to move to brooklyn in sepetember; that shes gonna save money all summer and then leave at the end of the summer. she invited me to go. now, i feel really in between because i dont know what to do in may. more than anything i want to go to NYC. it made me really unsettled when i realized i wouldnt be able to go in may because of the whole "being at a job for a year" thing, and not having any money saved and really, just running out of tyme. if her and i go in september, we can most likely get a decent place to split, and we'd have plenty of tyme to find jobs.
finally, something to look forward to! :D