um, i am becoming exceedingly nervous about being a boring person. i go to work, go home for lunch, back to work, i dont daydream anymore, go home, make dinner or have leftovers, watch tv, snuggle with kitties, go to sleep around 11. only this past weekend i went out pretty hard and surprisingly had a lovely tyme. except for spending so much money. but i met new people, was relaxed (!) and maybe had some inspiration. yay!
besides yoga and swing, i dont go anywhere else. the craft store doestn count. i thought about meeting people at the grocery store. i went after work last week and there wasnt anyoen there to be interested in. oie. i gave up on craig which is in my best interest. i dont have any friends, i dont care to try to meet people around here cause they're all the same. i have gained a little weight and have been feeling pretty down on myself. i put some eye liner on a couple days ago and it made me feel surprisingly better. so i painted my nails too. made me think about the extra weight ive put on. i think when im happier with who i am i eat less. so, ive been trying to be happy about myself. its working. all of yesterday and today. whoop! hahaha i cant believe i cant button my blue cult jeans...that makes me really sad, but then again, they were awful tight when i bought em anyway. so, in like a month i hope to be able to wear them out. and actually be able to sit. hahaha

back to being 'boring'. all i do is sit in this office and it dulls my brain. the days drag on and i have no energy. when i home from work all i want to do is eat and watch tv. i dotn read, check out magazines, or mmmeeeee! nothing. i just feel liek another zombie in society. i dont which is worse-the restaurant? its frustrating to feel like my blood has turned to sludge and my creativity looks like a raisin or dried up capilaries. it feels weird. i dont liek it.


by the way, oh man, whatever happened to TINC???!?!?!