uld cry at the drop of a hat today. i know why: because i always feel like no one likes me. that stupid janitor never called like he said he would. so i nonchalantly waited up as late as i could and woke up swinging when i heard my phone go off. now im tired at my desk and thats making me angry. i just want to go to sleep; sure dont want to go to yoga. the christmas party is tonite, and while i think that will be fun, i just dont care. brian is going with me..but i guess he asked the new girl. he was all knocked out by the mike drama, which is also pissing me off. christ. fuck it all. i just dont understand why everyone cant be straight up all the tyme. i am. its not hard. im sick of being dicked around. i dont know why i waste tyme on these pathetic losers. like honestly brielle, a fucking janitor? honest to god. it was bad enough that adam stocked the coolers at stop and shop. i know why i go for those people with those menial jobs though. its because they arent getting stuck by the corporations...or wait, maybe they are. umm..i need better wording than that. err..they arent directly contributing to corporate, capitalistic, suburban sprawling, america. they arent the ones in the seat of the CEO. they're blue collar workers, which i like, and which is very important to me. they arent contributing to the demise of america. they 'get it'. its not like those hoity toity corporate fucks that are spoon fed and willing to take out anyone in their way.

i dont know. im pissed and im rambling.
give this shit some more structure.