a self portrait

today i am dealing with the fact that i often do not feel very feminine in that my proportions are very large for lady i feel. first off, my feet are gargantuan. my hands are not delicate, rather stubby and chunky. though i would think they would be more slender because of the sheer size of them, they are unfortunately not. now, this next realization about my bizarre proportions is a new one. just a few days old. in relation to the other girls i know, or at least the girls that are very pretty, they have petite faces. my skull, compared to theirs, is much larger than these other girls. its almost embarrassing. in fact, i am sort of embarrassed by this point. what i do have on my face that many of these other girls do not is ridiculous cheekbones that protrude from the jowls. my cheeks have sunken in in the past couple of years from my poor eating habits. i believe the only reason i have any fat on my face is because of the great quantity of dark beer i consume. another structurally facial attribute is my jaw line. it leaves the neck with clear distinction, flawlessly creates angles and shadows and connects both sides square in the center with a sweet little chin. in fact, the jaw rises out of a perfect neck, though a little on the abnormally large side, and the neck rises out of square and strong shoulders. collarbones that give way to subtle shadows, and a thin layer of skin over the breast plate. i am also fortunate to be the recipient of the long torso. my legs are large, and really, no muscle definition is prominent; this is not in direct correlation to the power they are capable of exuding. my back, on the other hand, very vividly describes the power i am capable of.